Finally starting to settle in

Last night Laila woke up every hour to feed! Between that and all the questions and concerns going through my mind, it is pretty safe to say I am utterly exhausted. But my mind is now at rest - I called the 'warm line' at the hospital - one of the numbers they gave me to call if I had any questions at any time. I called and got all of my questions answered that had been worrying me. Surfing the web was not helping because there were different answers everywhere - so now that I've talked to a professional I feel a lot better.
God, my hormones have been all over the place. I've gone from super happy to sobbing in not a lot of time, over silly stuff too. I've also been feeling a bit lonely because I haven't gotten to spend a lot of close time with Enzio since Laila was born. In the hospital he slept in one of those pull-out chair beds, and since we've been home we've had visitors everyday and haven't had a lot of alone time to really cuddle or anything. It is strange, missing someone when they are around all the time. Also, I'm a bit jealous because at night he can sleep while I have to get up every hour to feed Laila. But, I'm the mother! And if he could, he would do it. He's a great dad, Laila and I are so lucky to have him.
Besides being exhausted and stressed and having all the healing pains, I'm also having pain in my shoulders - mostly my right one. It started hurting while I was in the hospital - and I assumed it had to do with sleeping on the hard mattress... but it seems to be a little worse now. I think maybe it is due to my heavier milk filled breasts and maybe the way I have been holding Laila while feeding her ... it's easier and faster in the middle of the night to just latch her on without setting up any support for my arms. And then last night I was so tired I started drifting off during two of Laila's feedings - with my head lolling forward. None of that can be good for my shoulder. At least I'm hoping that's all it is.
Anyway! Tomorrow is Laila's first Drs appointment! We have to go in at 10:30am - not looking forward to that at all. The Pediatrician is 1/2 an hour away, so we will have to leave at 10, which means getting up at 9:30 or so. Awesome.